September 12, 2011

What is love?

Even though I do miss you, Eric, from time to time, I can see God’s plan and it is perfect even if sometimes painful. He crossed our paths and now I have a wonderful husband in John. God is good… All the time.

I probably won’t post on here anymore. I need to focus on my marriage with John that we might be made good servants on the Lord through the love we have for each other.

“By this we know love, because Jesus Christ laid down His life for us. And we also ought to lay down our lives for each other.” 1 John 3:16

We will see you in eternity. :)

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September 1, 2011

I miss you Eric Murdie :)

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February 18, 2011

Do you know I still think of you every day?

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November 17, 2010

Watched our wedding video last night. Put a smile on my face and a tear in my eye. What a wonderful day that was. We are doing a Bible study here (me and some other ladies). One of my friends that never met you wanted to see you so I showed her some pics and videos afterward. We laughed a lot. Thanks Babe. :)

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September 19, 2010

Baptism

Hey Babe,

I got baptized today.  I know you can’t see us down here, but I hope you give me a hug up there today.  I remember the day we all went to the church and you were baptized… it was almost exactly two years ago this weekend.  I’m so glad you did.  I don’t know if anyone that knows you from home realizes the spiritual change you went through in our last months together.  I don’t know if they get where you are or what this all means.

Water baptism is a symbol of the spiritual change… the death of the flesh and resurrection of a new life.  I know that where you are now is the most wonderful place and I’m so glad that we’ll meet up there again.  God is so good and I can’t believe He did what He did in our lives. 

I pray that anyone that reads this will think in detail about what you went through and what they will go through… death is inevitable.  It is hard to sometimes fathom what it will actually be like… I don’t fear death like I used to.  I owe that peace to God through you.  I will never forget that day and I hope I never do. I will see you soon.  That will be a good day.

Love,

me

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September 7, 2010
Well Babe, I’m so sorry… I left Cheese out last night… like so many nights and woke up a bit ago to Benny freaking out and a comotion on the porch.  I went downstairs and turned on an outside light and saw a coyote run off with Cheeseball.  I can’t believe the friggin’ thing came up on the porch.  I’m so so so sorry. I always joke about Cheese dying, but I didn’t want that dang cat to go.  He’s like my last major tie to you.  I know that sounds weird cuz I talk to your family, but he was here in this house and now he’s gone too.  And he’s been Benny’s brother.   They even sleep together now. Oh well…life huh?  It’s ok or else it will be… I love ya and I’m sorry. - me

Well Babe,

I’m so sorry… I left Cheese out last night… like so many nights and woke up a bit ago to Benny freaking out and a comotion on the porch.  I went downstairs and turned on an outside light and saw a coyote run off with Cheeseball.  I can’t believe the friggin’ thing came up on the porch.  I’m so so so sorry. I always joke about Cheese dying, but I didn’t want that dang cat to go.  He’s like my last major tie to you.  I know that sounds weird cuz I talk to your family, but he was here in this house and now he’s gone too.  And he’s been Benny’s brother.   They even sleep together now. Oh well…life huh?  It’s ok or else it will be… I love ya and I’m sorry. - me

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August 29, 2010

Eric’s death was the catalyst for wanting to know what the truth is. Some would say “she’s gone all Christian”. I say Amen! The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom! Eric feared God. And he sought after Him. And He was saved by Him, even through death. That means today I’m not sad because he was given the chance to seek the Truth and found it!!

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August 15, 2010
Finally went on the Margaret Todd. Listened to a bagpiper playing Amazing Grace while waiting in line to get on… Wondered if it was Ernie?

Finally went on the Margaret Todd. Listened to a bagpiper playing Amazing Grace while waiting in line to get on… Wondered if it was Ernie?

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July 15, 2010

Happy 2nd Anniversary Babe. I’m in the car in the driveway listening to a playlist on your iPod that you made for our wedding. Snow Patrol’s Chasing Cars. That one’s my favorite one in here so far. Although I’m listening to Tantric’s Down and Out. I remember you loving that one. And of course a little Godsmack. Wow did we get Godsmacked… A pun for all puns… Still love you…

-me

PS what a combination of songs…

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July 7, 2010

Three years ago today you told me you loved me for the first time. We were standing in a field in Indiana watching the sunset at my sister’s wedding. I miss you Babe!

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