Eric Murdie: Archive

What is love?

Even though I do miss you, Eric, from time to time, I can see God’s plan and it is perfect even if sometimes painful. He crossed our paths and now I have a wonderful husband in John. God is good… All the time. I probably won’t post on here anymore. I need to focus on my marriage with John that we might be made good servants on the Lord through the love we have for each...

Sep 12th

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I miss you Eric Murdie :)

Sep 2nd

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Do you know I still think of you every day?

Feb 19th

Watched our wedding video last night. Put a smile on my face and a tear in my eye. What a wonderful day that was. We are doing a Bible study here (me and some other ladies). One of my friends that never met you wanted to see you so I showed her some pics and videos afterward. We laughed a lot. Thanks Babe. :)

Nov 18th

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Baptism

Hey Babe, I got baptized today. I know you can’t see us down here, but I hope you give me a hug up there today. I remember the day we all went to the church and you were baptized… it was almost exactly two years ago this weekend. I’m so glad you did. I don’t know if anyone that knows you from home realizes the spiritual change you went through in our last months...

Sep 20th

Sep 7th

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Eric’s death was the catalyst for wanting to know what the truth is. Some would say “she’s gone all Christian”. I say Amen! The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom! Eric feared God. And he sought after Him. And He was saved by Him, even through death. That means today I’m not sad because he was given the chance to seek the Truth and found it!!

Aug 30th

Aug 15th

Happy 2nd Anniversary Babe. I’m in the car in the driveway listening to a playlist on your iPod that you made for our wedding. Snow Patrol’s Chasing Cars. That one’s my favorite one in here so far. Although I’m listening to Tantric’s Down and Out. I remember you loving that one. And of course a little Godsmack. Wow did we get Godsmacked… A pun for all...

Jul 16th

Three years ago today you told me you loved me for the first time. We were standing in a field in Indiana watching the sunset at my sister’s wedding. I miss you Babe!

Jul 8th

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SMurdie

Hey Mr. Murdie, I’m signing notebooks today. Writing my signature a million times. It reminded me of that evening at the dining room table with Ross and Ash trying to decide how I wanted to write my new name. It made me smile. Love ya- SMurdie

Jun 17th

“To love someone means to see him as God intended him. - Fyodor Dostoevsky”

Jun 16th

iPhone

I can’t believe you didn’t get a chance to have an iPhone. I’m actually on a tumblr app right now and you so would have liked this… Anyway random thought…

May 14th

Flyleaf

Hey Babe, So I was thinking about the Flyleaf concert. Do you remember how little she was and man could she rock! Such a big voice for a 90 lb. girl. I just remember being front and center and how the dude from Disturbed was literally 10 feet from us… Alot of energy at that concert… (In hindsight…it wasn’t all good, but we did have a good time.) Wish I had known...

May 7th

Where you are....

It’s Easter today and it’s a year and a half since you’ve been gone. Of course, as on any Easter Sunday at church, Will gave the lesson on Christ’s ressurection and I’ve heard it many times, but he was talking about man being made in God’s image. And as God is triune…so is man, having a body, soul, and spirit. It reminded me of the overwhelming calmness...

Apr 5th

Apr 2nd

Say Cheese

Hey Babe, So I talked to Kody last night. He got a dog….named him Cheese after Uncle Eric’s cat. It makes me happy that he is old enough to remember you. He really liked his Uncle Eric. I miss the little guy. I wish I could see him more often. On another note I think I’m going to try and go fishing. I still have the pole I got you for your 26th birthday and your tackle box...

Mar 15th

DV...D..HD..VD...HDVD...ah that's it...

So I realized last night after watching videos of you that in 99% of them you were making fun of me. Brat :P Oh the love…love…love… Still miss you though.

Mar 13th

Remember all those days dreaming about vacations and looking at timeshares… well, maybe today…

Feb 25th

Uncle Eric

Mr. Murdie, Mr. Murdie, I don’t really have a whole lot to say. Life has been pretty good lately. Great family, great friends, and great God! We had a wonderful trip out to Indiana for Christmas. Spent some time with Kody. Random… we were talking about cracking necks…which btw gives me the heebie geebies…and Kody says Uncle Eric used to do that. Now I don’t...

Jan 5th

In your arms...

I woke up this morning thinking of you. I had a dream that you were hugging me and I woke up thinking about how I would listen to your heart beating and how completely at peace I would be in your arms. I want a hug. There is this want to be held by someone strong, for him to tell me everything will be okay…like you used to do. No matter what the issue, your arms were such a safe haven. ...

Dec 20th

Thanksgivings

Hey Mr. Murdie, I just wanted to write down about some Thanksgivings so I don’t forget. The first Thanksgiving after we met you went home. I still have the voice messages on my machine…a couple of cute messages from you thanking me for doing your injections for you. I remember you coming home and stopping in here. Standing in the kitchen…I was so excited to see you! I...

Nov 28th

Life just isn’t how I thought it was supposed to be…

Nov 23rd

Nov 18th

Third Day

Hey Babe, MP and I are going to go see Third Day today. I wish you were here to go too…although I don’t know if they would be “heavy” enough for you LOL! Its a 6 hour car ride in the Mazda…but I’ve got my AAA card and will pray for the best :) I love you! me On the third day He rose again…. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nGRUaN4bwAs

Nov 14th

FB

Hey Babe, I got rid of my facebook today. For many reasons. I stacked wood today. I went to the church breakfast. Now I’m making popovers. The fire’s going. It’s super quiet here. Well that’s today. :) me

Nov 7th

The Kabosh

Hey Babe, So I haven’t been able to get out of my own shadow this week. I’m so tired this week. I think its that time change. It gets dark at 5pm now. I’ve been walking after class lately though. Trying to get some of the “Burlington/tumor” weight off. I go down to Amicus and walk from there. That’s were I got your wheelchair with the head rest. Wicked...

Nov 6th

Things Left Unsaid

Babe, This song hit me so hard. I had to listen to it over and over…and cry. It wasn’t that you didn’t know I loved you, its that there were so many more conversations to have. I remember being in the hospital that last time and you saying “I love you”…Its the last time I remember you saying it. And reading the end of your book to you that night and seeing the...

Oct 29th

Wow I miss you…I showed off pics of you today. *Sigh* I just want a hug Baby. Love you…. me

Oct 21st

A year gone by

Babe, It’s hard to believe its been a year…I know tomorrow is the date, but God took you on a Sunday and that is how I will remember it. I had wondered how I’d be a year from then and it wasn’t at all as bad as I’d dreaded. I had some great fellowship with peep today. We talked about you quite a bit…remembering your fear of spiders…talking of...

Oct 5th

The sun goes up...

Hey Babe, Sometimes I get so ticked at you for not being here. I know its not your fault and its not God’s fault, but when things need to be done around here that you always took care of…I get mad….then just sad. I woke up this morning and it was one of those mornings where I wake up feeling like you’re here. Well not here in the house but still alive somewhere else and...

Oct 1st

Aunt Janie is Home

Hey Babe, Aunt Janie came to be with you tonight. Give her a big hug from me. It was so great to see here a couple of weeks ago. I know that she had said she was ready to go…to see Uncle Ronnie again. Its funny…I’m sad for Whitey, Brad and Nikole, but I’m so happy for her. What will that day be like when I come to see you? I’m not in a hurry. I know I have...

Sep 26th

At the beginning...

Do you remember when we first started dating? I was always so nervous…I’d freak out…write you long emails…and you…you would just tell me to “quit being a girl”, give me a hug, we’d talk about whatever it was I was all freaked out about…and all was fine. How did you ever put up with me? I’m glad you did. I had a dream about you last...

Sep 19th

Mr. and Mrs. Brent Deso

Hey Mr. Murdie, You would have been so proud of your sister and new brother. They had a beautiful wedding and a fabulous reception. Your sister was gorgeous…actually both of your sisters were. It was Melissa’s day and what a beautiful day it was! I thought before I got there that I’d be fine. Wow…I was…until the reception. I just wish you had been there for...

Sep 6th

Aug 29th

I found them

Hey Mr. Murdie, I found them…just wanted to let you know. I put them away for safe keeping. Also I wanted to say to anyone that still reads this that I’m fine…I have used this as a way to vent, as an outlet for sad moments and mad moments. The days between postings are longer and longer…and I am ok. So if you read these and I’m ranting about something or...

Aug 28th

All the dang crying...

Ok…so I’ve had enough of the crying…If you were here you’d definitely tell me to stop whining. I have been so emotional. Still haven’t found our rings either. I hope they turn up soon. I still miss you Babe. Some days and times are better than others I guess. Thank God for the long ride to and from work to get all those stupid tears out. I think that’s...

Aug 17th

I lost them...

Babe, I lost them…I took them off and put them on the band of my watch. I can’t find them anywhere. What do I do? I’ve even tried not looking for them…and they are still missing. I’m starting to worry. Actually I was worried…I stopped worrying and now I’m really worried that they are gone. I don’t know what to do about it. It makes me...

Aug 15th

Birthdays

Oh Mr. Murdie, I still am waiting…on what I don’t actually know. It almost our birthdays…no plans this year. Remember when we got dressed up and went to the Crocker House…and then the next year we went to Ruth and Wimpy’s for my birthday…All I can remember is the flies on the ceiling…not quite what we expected. And your birthday we went to TGI Fridays...

Aug 11th

Fighting the sleep

I need to go to bed…I can’t…I’m missing you badly. So is Cheeseball… Love you…I’m going to try to give into it… me

Aug 8th

Stuck on pause

Mr. Murdie, Its those little things that make me sad. Like getting ready to go to bed tonight and its so hot…and how we would turn on the air conditioner…but this year you’re not here and so it didn’t get put in. I thought by now things would be different…better. I still feel like you’ll be coming home anytime now. I still feel on pause. Like I’m...

Jul 29th

Adam's Inn

A year ago this weekend you asked me to marry you. We were so happy in love. I remember every bit of that weekend…from the small room at the Adam’s Inn to eating the worst Pakistani/Italian food ever to waking up to you on one knee… I remember asking you if you would ask my dad to marry me and you already had. You made me cry, you wonderful jerk… I will always love you,...

Jun 27th

May 25th

A day of remembrance

Hey Baby, I’ve been thinking about you alot today and I wish I could go up to the cemetary and see the flowers your mom is planting for you. A whole bunch…some of them blue for you. I got the grill out and was thinking about the day you put it together. I have it on the computer…on DVD. I’m so glad I can watch those and hear your voice. I wish I could figure out how to...

May 25th

The same

Babe, I don’t know what to write tonight. All I know is that I miss you so much. It doesn’t change. I have ok days and then days like today. Where I feel like I did months ago. I sometimes think you are coming home soon. The house hasn’t changed. I haven’t even put your clean clothes away. They are still on the dresser. Our downstairs room is the same. Its a...

May 15th

“I’m standing on the moon, with nothing left to do, with a lonely view of...”

– unknown

May 5th

Miss you Baby...

Babe, Sometimes there are things I stress about that I know I wouldn’t if you were here, and in knowing that I get upset. I know I should just chill out, but you’re not here to give me my hug and I miss you so much. On another note, Cheese has decided he’d like to be an outside cat. He was out overnight the other night…I don’t know how he got out. And then day...

May 5th

May 2nd

Apr 29th