February 2009
16 posts
Blue Hill Fair
As much as I know there are people that are out there that read this…I wouldn’t mind a comment or two. Everyone once and a while its good to hear about you from someone else. Today Melissa and I were talking about the time we went to the Blue Hill Fair and we all got sick on that ride, especially you and she. Hey remember your girlfriend “Skunk”…that was from the...
January 2009
19 posts
I'm so sorry Baby...
Letting go of you is so hard. Its something I must do. Moving forward is good, so they tell me. There’s no rush. Somedays I feel that I can look ahead and others its hard to pick my head up off the pillow. I do ok when I think of the good times we had. Its when I think of the last month, the look in your eyes, that tears me apart. It puts me in a foul mood. I try to shut out...
“As I started to picture the trees in the storm, the answer began to dawn on me....”
– Julia Butterfly Hill
Help me keep the faith Baby… Tonight I’m having a hard time seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.
I miss you - me
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Well Babe,
I don’t know what to say tonight. You know I love you and you know I miss you. Other than that the kids are fine. Ross is making Sully a dream home for in the corner of the dining room. Its sleeting outside and I know I’m not going to feel like going to work tomorrow. I have to go get the car inspected next week. Fred was out of stickers. I settled on a project for...
Well…tonight is one of those nights where I think I’m going to be fine. Its so weird trying to think about moving forward, especially without you. I know it will happen, I’m not rushing it. I’m trying to remember everything. But I’ve tried not to dwell over your pictures. I can’t. It will tear me apart. I have several that are around the house and I look...
Good Night, Babe...I love you
Was it a dream?
Hey Babe,
So its 4 am and I woke up crying… Was it a dream? You were here weren’t you? Sometimes on the verge of sleep and waking up, you’re still here, next to me and its like if I roll over you’ll still be there and I could hug you. Even though during the day I think…”I’m ok, I can handle this.”, its so hard at night. I was chatting with your...
I still love you, Baby...
“ There’s this place in me where your finger tips still rest… your...”
– unknown
Thank You Friends
A good friend reminded me tonight that everyone has sent up so many prayers, for not only me, but our families too. I have some of the best friends anyone could have. So does Eric. We all miss him dearly. Its not been easy and we all deal how we deal. Me, I cry alot, get bitchy, remember the last not so good things, remember the great things, get happy and smiley…and around and around...
The second day of a new year
Hey Babe,
I feel like doing a count down. Don’t know what for though. Wish I knew what day I’d see you again. That would be the best one. You know there is always that debate: Would you want to know when you were going to die? I used to say no, but man wouldn’t I love to know now. I think you’d live more freely. We would have definitely gone to Belize. I remember...
“I swore I’d love you ‘til the end of forever, and forever...”
– Toby Keith
Happy New Year Baby
Hey Babe,
I went to Franny and Sledge’s tonight to a New Year’s Eve party. Guess what I won a door prize…it was awesome…a stuffed PPPPteradactyl named PPPPterrance. Remember our joke about PPPPteridactyls and KKKKnapsacks and KKKKnifes? LOL I won it on the first round and it instantly made me think of you. Franny has our Christmas picture from last year on their...